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Some kind of bad feeling has engulfed me from yesterday. It has stuck on to my mind, I'm unable to get it off my mind. I am trying to distract my mind but in vain, I get back that ill feeling in no time. I used be in the similar state when I was in II PUC and also remember passing the same state when i was in 5th semester. It gives me such a hopeless feeling. Makes me feel like a loser and takes away all my confidence. Fearful thoughts come into my mind. I am just feeling low, unable to overcome it. As if I've lost all the interest but this thought keeps haunting me back. Its like you're stuck in the middle of a Labyrinth and you know you'd come out of it, yet your mind keeps on telling you that it'll be difficult to come out and fills you with lots of ill thoughts. A cool mind takes you a long way even in desperate situations. I'm underestimating me too much, I feel. Because I am not in such a bad situation at all! Probably a problem or two like everyone face ...

Sometimes I pass though a strange phase. Just like how I'm now at the present moment. Totally baffled and have no clue! I'm not able to focus on any particular thing and nothing seems to be interesting! Its strange because I am not able to overcome though I know exactly what's going on in my mind. I'm trying to indulge myself into something but nothing seems to be encouraging enough. Every time I think of doing something, something holds me back and the next moment I lose interest in it. It's like you're caught in a place full of cobweb and your vision isn't clear, you try hard to clear off the web so as to get a clear vision but end up getting into a much worse situation with cobwebs on your hands and you realize you are still in the same place and stuck in the same condition. Been in this kind of situation before, I've always failed to perceive the reason for this. I know I get better after a little while but i wonder why I've to pass through this ...